Thursday, June 22, 2017

Mr. Brightside

Okay, so I have come to realize I'm not the only person who has up and down days at work. I do feel like you should absolutely love what you do, and I want to, but while I'm where I am, I am going to do my best to make the best out of the situations. There are days where I'm going to lament, and I'll probably never like waking up at 6:30 in the morning (I'm not a morning person, so though I have to work at 8, I need that time). But I feel good walking around and asking people how they are on my way to wherever I'm going at any given point in the day. I like knowing that I am relied on to do things or that I make others feel good.


So in conclusion, lol, I used to be a whatever happens happens, go with the flow kind of person. I intend to be that person again. Do my job, keep it moving, and if something else comes along, then, we'll see what happens then.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Enjoying My Queer Social Media Experience

Something I mentioned on my demi tumblr a little while ago:

https://debthedemi.tumblr.com/post/160856394161/i-wish-id-known-about-asexuality-when-i-was-16

I was definitely demisexual in my teen years and didn't know it. I even came across a Timehop post I did two years ago trying to figure out why I did things so differently. I don't remember what it was about, but I'm sure my newfound identity might have played a part in that. Now that I've found AVEN and a whole community on tumblr, I feel better. It's a good feeling, and I hope others can feel that about their orientations.
Happy Pride Month!

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Good Work Evaluation

I had my evaluation with my manager yesterday. She said I was doing a great job, which actually made me feel a little better about being here. I did come just before they had some major changes, hospital and department wide, so I felt like I was drowning for a reason. There are some things I can improve on, so while I'm here, I'm going to do my best to be patient and learn what I can. That's not to say I won't keep checking job boards every now and then, but I will at least keep a positive attitude about where I am now.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

This Can't Be Life

I was going to apply for this internal position in another department. When I tried the first time, it asked if I had been in my current position for at least 12 Months after my Initial Orientation Period. I thought that meant my Orientation. Turns out it means the 90 day period after I was hired. So I would have to wait another 3 months before I could apply to that position. Do you really think there's a chance it would still be there in 3 months? Or that I will be?


I hate this place. But I will keep my head up.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Yeah, I Need to Get Out of Here

I thought that maybe I just needed to actively settle into my job, but despite the good days, there are moments when I'm legitimately ready to walk out and not return. I don't like the number of people I have to constantly deal with. I don't like my director or the way he decides to phrase things when he talks to me. My Timehop shows me counting down to my leaving my last job (my last day was a year ago tomorrow), and now I'm regretting leaving it, even though I desperately needed a full time job. I keep thinking, "Well, what if I had looked harder for another part time?" Did I do all I needed to? I hate second guessing myself. In 5 days, I can apply to another department. Just 5. They'll go by quickly (hopefully not the weekend portion).

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Back to the old Grind

Aside from a cold I had, I thoroughly enjoyed my vacation. Didn't do any excursions or cruise activities, just took time to rest. My friends and I did go to the beach in Nassau, but the waves were obnoxious.

This week, I got back to the grind at work, spent a couple of days hating it. Then, I went to my church's revival, and the sermons were basically about your attitude when going through trials. I'll just do my best to be patient.

I registered at Ace-Book, a Facebook for Asexuals and A-Specs. I'll see where that leads.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Counting Down My Vacation Days

This time next week, I will be in the Bahamas, soaking up the sun with my friends. I will not think about this job for one iota of a second.


An administrative assistant job opened up in the IT department, but I can't apply to internal jobs until I've been here a year. That's about 35 days away. Loopholes. I also want to see if they would give me above the Midpoint, because I already make that. I miss working at DTI. I wish I were still there.