Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Self-Evaluations and the Weekend

So today, I had to do a self-evaluation of my work performance. =\ I'd say I've never heard of such, but my mom's worked here since I was a child, and I've heard her complain about it. It's the dumbest thing you could make an employee do. One of the questions was do I see myself staying in this career in the next 1-3 years. I said no. Hopefully they keep me until I find another job.

My friend is opening for Marvin Sapp at the 76ers' Gospel Night this Friday. I'll be reading during the game. I'd love to just go to Paolo's, get a slice of pizza that won't cost me a foot, and go to the concert, but it's all or nothing.

While my younger sister and I are there being supportive and patient, my older sister is hosting her pre-wedding festivities (I'd very much like to catch her at the hookah bar, but Payday is next week), and Saturday is the Big Day! I'll get excited maybe as we're sitting there.

Friday, March 10, 2017

To Meet or Not To Meet??

Tomorrow is supposed to be the official first meeting for my Demis & Aces group. I don't know if anyone's going; they haven't RSVP'd so far, and the deadline is tonight. It's snowing here, so if it sticks, I don't want the person from Wilmington coming down here. People are notorious for getting in accidents in the snow here.

I'm also nervous about meeting new people. I joined the Asexuality Visibility & Education Network, an online community. The people are really nice there, but I just have to close my laptop, and they're gone. I can't do that with people face-to-face (only an impulsive introvert like me would start a group and then be chicken about it). So hopefully, all goes well. *shrug*

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Applying for Jobs

In other news, I am starting to apply to jobs that are more focused on writing.

I'm tired of being a professional secretary. Most of the time, I'm the middle man, and I'm the type of person who typically says, "Why don't you ask THEM," and unfortunately, it's my job to be the middle man.

Every day I wake up and realize I'm still an administrative assistant, I cringe and want to get back in bed, or run away and just write. I'm tired of taking messages, of sending out e-mails about when people want to meet, keeping a bunch of stuff that doesn't interest me in my headspace that's already pretty crowded.

So I'm praying that I'll see more jobs where writing is needed, so I can put myself out there.

Again, wish me luck!

I Made A Meetup

I decided to start a group on Meetup, as I didn't see any specifically for demisexuals or asexuals in my area. At first, I didn't know if anyone would join, but I wanted to be proactive with this and find others like me out here.We live in a world where "sex sells," and if we don't buy it there's no alternative, so it's difficult to brush off sometimes. These issues aren't something anyone else I know would understand. It seems small, but when you see it over and over again, and people ask you when you're going to find someone or why you're single, etc., etc. all the time, it can get frustrating.

So I created Demis & Aces of Delaware. The same day that the Meetup admins approved the group and broadcasted it, I had a request for someone to join! I was so thrilled. Sunday, I received another request! I hope there will be more to come. I think this will be good for me and for the others.

Wish me luck. <3

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Monday, February 20, 2017

Things I Need To Do

I need a new job. I'm applying for non-administrative assistant jobs because I'm tired of being someone's secretary. I've done it for long enough. I wish more jobs in the state catered to other fields, but we're small.

I need to figure out if I'm going to oversee our church's website team. People don't often listen to me, and I get frustrated easily, so I really need to take some time to think of it.

I need to not be on Twitter as much so I can focus on reading and writing. I've lost myself a little in a lot of things, and I want to go back to a simpler time in social media. So I will.

I need to get out more but to places fit for me. Part of me knows it's considered weird to like being in the house all day. Another part doesn't care but I also know if I want to build a social life and meet a guy, the only ones I'll meet at my house deliver mail or food, so...I need to go to the mountain. I might go to a writer's workshop in Philly in April. Definitely going to some cons. I've started doing 5k's, so I'm at least among the population.

I need to get back into shape, which is hard in my 30s because I don't necessarily care but at the same time do, so there's that. My joints are starting to ache, too, so I might want to work on talking care of myself.

And now, I need to go to sleep.

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Laughing to Keep From Crying Today

Slightly dramatic sentiment, but partially true.
I'm not sure why my coworker feels that she's the only one cold in our room, but she's turned the rotation feature off on our space heater TWICE. I want to curse her out, but I'm just pretending like she's not here. I don't know if she's being petty for the dumb questions she was asking yesterday that I wouldn't let her be dumb on, but whatever. Maybe she thinks the creaking noise is annoying, but I think her voice and off-key humming is annoying, so...
As I'm looking for other jobs, I realize the jobs I want come with a $10,000 decrease in pay, which I can't afford, so I'm pretty much screwed for a little while. I had a dream the other day that was disturbing to say the least. My scalp was peeling off, and I was acting like it was natural. I walked leisurely to the bathroom to clip off the rest because I didn't want to bleed. Naturally, when I woke up, my thought was, "What the heck was that?"
I'm big on dream interpretations, so I eventually went to see if "scalp" was somewhere on There was:
  • To see your scalp in your dream indicates that there is something that you need to get out of your head.
  •  To dream that you or someone has been scalped suggests that your vitality and energy is being drained away by some situation or someone else

Well, aren't both of those true.

So I've listened to Nikki Glaser's album Perfect, which from minute 1 I was laughing. I almost didn't stop. Now, I'm listening to Deon Cole's Cole Blooded Seminar. Hi-larious. I used to laugh a lot more than I do now, and I miss it. I'm glad I downloaded so I can return comedy to my life on a regular basis. It will certainly help me feel better more often.